hey there

random place.
(click on it, you know you want to. it really is exciting, okay not really but it's the idea behind it)

i plan to road trip here after senior year. mini goat is going to be joining me.
you may ask why i would want to go to such a place, and i'm not really sure.
it'll be an adventure!

this goes hand in hand with college and leaving home. as of right now i have to ask permission to do most things, and if i wanted to road trip to a random place this year the answer would be a no. there is no reason for me to go there. why would i want to waste my gas on a trip to go there? why, simply because i can. i'm looking forward to being the boss of myself and making my own decisions in college.

nothing against my parents or their rules, but sometimes i just want a little more freedom. i know they trust me, and i think now they just have to trust themselves and what they've taught me. sure, i'll make mistakes, they're an unavoidable part of life, but i'll learn and grow from them. you learn so much more from failure than you do from always succeeding. and i bet once you make that mistake you won't make it again. that's growth right there. mistakes happen and the only productive thing you can do about them is learn from them and move on. don't dwell on them or cry over the spilled milk.

i'm not asking for complete independence here because i know that i am not ready for that. i could not handle it, i still have more learning and growing to do before even attempting getting rid of the crutches totally. i'm just asking for maybe setting down and going around with one less crutch every now and then. it'll be a strengthening exercise and i'll end up going back to two but eventually setting down the second one more permanently. this way when i do stand up on my own two feet i'll already have a little experience and the transition will be so much smoother with less chance of falling backwards.

college will be here before we all know it and then it's only a few short years until we're out in th real world. i feel that the more preparing we do now while we're in a more sheltered environment the easier it will be for us to stand on our own two feet without the support of crutches.